love is // forever newlywed

i'm linking up with alana today.

brandon is out of town, on business...

for a whole week.

i've been thinking back to when i was single.

living on my own, enjoy my independence.

never checking in.

doing whatever i wanted, when i wanted.

i loved it.

i loved going to movies + dinner alone.

i loved wandering around the city looking for new places i'd never been before.

i loved sprawling out on my bed + only sharing it with little penelope.

i loved spending my money as i saw fit.

i loved having parties at my place just because.

i loved meeting new people.

i loved my ever evolving self.

...and i NEVER wanted to get married.

(not after the heart breaks i'd been through)

and i especially never wanted children.

but there he was.

 charming.

funny.

adorable.

and i did everything in my power not to fall for him.

i told myself over + over again --

"the timing isn't right"

"i just want to be friends"

"i don't think this going anywhere"

he moved in, just as a roommate, of course...

...a roommate whose room i slept in every night.

it was 3 years ago today that we were moving our things in to our first place.

it's crazy how time flies.

now we've been married 2 years.

and i can't imagine the rest of my life without him.

he's helped me in ways the no one will ever understand.

with him i've learned how to be happy, on my own...

that may seem strange, but i've never had that for myself before.

i've learned to balance responsibility and fun.

i've learned that sometimes you just need to let things go.

i've learned that you really can love someone more and more everyday...

which i never thought was possible.

i've learned patience with goals + life.

with him, everything is much more clear.

decisions are much easier to make.

everything i do is for him.

for us.

because i want to.

 and i like it.

 because when i come home at the end of a 12 hour work day,

he's waiting for me.

and we lie down on our bed, hold eachothers hands + talk about life.

we talk about what we want to do on our date night.

we talk about how many kids we want to have + what their names will be.

we talk about how funny penelope is + why we love her.

we talk about how brandon will be president + i will be the first lady.

we talk about our dream home + all the pretty things inside it.

we talk about trips to rome + paris.

we talk about why we love each other.

and he makes me smile.

today is one of those 12 hour work days.

but today i'll go home to an empty house and a lonely kitty.

i love him.

i miss him.

he makes my world a better place.